Thriller Thursday: Narcissist or Psychopath?

Welcome back to our resident psychologist, mystery author Kassandra Lamb. She’s got a great post for us today. Please be sure to leave her some love:)

Five Differences Between Narcissists and Psychopaths

Thanks so much, Stacy, for inviting me to Thriller Thursday.

One of my all-time favorite TV shows is Criminal Minds, but every now and then they tick me off. The other night, my husband and I were watching an episode (from Season Five) and the BAU team kept referring to the serial killer as a narcissist. Never once did they point out that he was also a psychopath.

What’s the big difference, you might be wondering. There are some pretty significant differences. In this particular Criminal Minds case, narcissism was the motive, but being a psychopath was what allowed the killer to ruthlessly murder random women to fulfill his narcissistic needs.

And no, this isn’t a semantic hair split.

First let’s clarify what narcissists and psychopaths have in common. They both have personality disorders (narcissistic and antisocial). This means that their unhealthy behaviors and attitudes are very deeply ingrained. They are part of their basic personalities.

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The term ‘narcissist’ comes from the Greek myth about a beautiful young man who fell in love with his own reflection in a pool of water.

Second they are both egocentric. They are very focused on themselves–their feelings, their needs, their desires. It’s all about them. Now to how they are different.

1.  Empathy: Psychopaths have none. They are incapable of experiencing and don’t care about other people’s emotions. Their own feelings, on the other hand, are all important. They view other people’s feelings as something to be manipulated.

Narcissists are so totally focused on their own feelings that they almost always miss the cues regarding others’ emotions, even when the other person tells them what they’re feeling.

“Honey, when you do such-and-such, that really hurts my feelings.”

“Yeah, I’m sorry, but…”

Narcissists can be masters at “yeah, butting” their way through a discussion of feelings. However, if you can get them to realize how their behavior is affecting someone else, they are capable of empathy. But you may need to smack them upside the head with a two-by-four a few times to get their attention.

2.  Remorse: Narcissists have a conscience; they feel guilt and remorse. Psychopaths do not.

Are narcissists capable of violence? Most definitely! A fair number of wife-batterers are narcissists. Are they capable of murder? Oh, yeah, especially in a fit of rage. They may even commit cold-blooded murder but they would have to be able to justify it to themselves, because they would feel remorse. They might tell themselves that the person didn’t deserve to live. Or they wouldn’t have gotten hurt if they’d just done what they were told to do, say in an armed robbery situation gone bad.

The psychopathic killer doesn’t have to rationalize to appease their guilt, because they don’t feel any. They may even get off on the power that violence gives them over others.

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Narcissists crave being the center of attention. Photo by Thore Siebrands, CC-BY-SA 2.0 Wikimedia Commons

3.  Can they change?  Narcissists, maybe. Psychopaths, extremely unlikely. Because narcissists are capable of empathy and remorse, once you get their attention, they may be motivated to change. But personality disorders, by definition, are very hard to ‘cure’ because they are so deeply ingrained in the person’s basic make-up.

I have ‘cured’ a couple personality disorders in my career as a psychotherapist, one of them a narcissist. And I know firsthand of another case of narcissism where there was considerable change. This latter case was the husband of one of my clients. (Note: I have changed several details in this story to protect confidentiality.) Over the first couple years of their marriage, his behavior became increasingly emotionally abusive. His new wife told him repeatedly that this was not okay. Finally she’d had enough. While he was at work one day, she moved out. He came home to a completely empty apartment–no wife, no furniture, no dog. That was the two-by-four upside his head!

He begged her to come back to him but she stuck to her guns. (I was very proud of her.) He agreed to go into therapy but she still wouldn’t move back. They remained separated for almost a year while he worked with a therapist and they saw a couples counselor together. After she moved back in, he continued in therapy until he had healed from the childhood experiences that had warped his personality development in the first place. Last I heard from them, this couple was still happily married.

I have never heard of an actual case of antisocial personality disorder (i.e, a psychopath) being cured. The best a therapist may accomplish–and this is a long shot–is to get the person to change some of their behavior by convincing them that behavior is not in their own best interests. In other words, it’s still all about them.

While psychopaths may very well be loners.

While psychopaths may very well be loners.

4.  The underlying emotions and motivations: Both narcissists and psychopaths come from bad childhood situations, often with some kind of abuse. The outcomes of these experiences are different however. Narcissists are riddled with self-doubt. They are trying to build themselves up to compensate for this. They are needy little kids in adult bodies who put on a false and often arrogant front.

Psychopaths genetically start out with different wiring (see my previous guest post, The Making of a Psychopath). They have more difficulty feeling remorse and empathy than other children do. Add to that a bad home environment and what little bit of these feelings they were capable of is drummed out of them.

They certainly aren’t confident people but they aren’t blatantly concerned about their self-image either. They usually lack introspection. They really don’t think about it.

5.  Seeking attention/adoration vs. seeking thrills: Narcissists care what others think of them. They may cover this up with false bravado but they really want praise and adulation. They are often braggarts, exaggerating their own accomplishments while envying others’ success.

A psychopath may also be full of themselves and they aren’t going to tolerate anything that strikes them as a putdown, but for the most part they don’t give a flying you-know-what about what others think of them. Their showing off or bragging is more about power. They are getting off on feeling superior to others, and especially if other people are afraid of them.

Another problem with the psychopath’s initial wiring is that his/her (more often his) nervous system is under-responsive to stimulation. It takes a lot to get them excited. Normal everyday life, that makes most of us feel fairly happy, is totally boring and leaves them feeling dead inside.  They’re constantly seeking high levels of stimulation–the adrenaline rush, the thrill that will make them feel alive for a little while.

I’ve had narcissists vs. psychopaths on the mind lately because a key character in my latest novel is a recovered narcissist. He is a former client of psychotherapist Kate Huntington and when she first started working with him years ago she thought he might be a psychopath. (The line between the two is fuzzy sometimes.) After a lot of hard work in therapy, he transformed himself into the person he wanted to be and built the good life he’d always wanted.

And then his past comes back to haunt him. He meets a man at a party whom he used to know years ago, by a different name and under very different circumstances.

I hope I’ve intrigued you enough to check out the book. And then feel free to ask any questions you may have about narcissists vs. psychopaths.

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COLLATERAL CASUALTIES:

When a former client reaches out to psychotherapist Kate Huntington and reveals a foreign diplomat’s dark secret, then dies of ‘natural causes’ just days later, Kate isn’t sure what to think. Was the man delusional or is she now privy to dangerous information?

Soon she discovers her client was totally sane… and he was murdered. Someone is now trying to eliminate her, and anyone and everyone she might have told. Forced into hiding, she and her husband, Skip, along with the operatives of his private investigating agency, struggle to stay one step ahead of a ruthless killer. Skip and his P.I. partner are good investigators, but this time they may be in over their heads… and they could all end up drowning in a sea of international intrigue.

(This book is part of a series but is designed to work quite well as a stand-alone.)

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Thriller Thursday: The excitement of plotting

Yes, you read that right. First, instead of talking about true crime today, I’m going to talk about something that is thrilling to me. And today, that’s the power of plotting. Pansters, don’t leave! I promise there is something for you in this post.

When I started writing INTO THE DARK, I was a true pantster. I had no idea where the story was going, and it was only when I really started studying story structure that I started seeing the value of plotting. But I still clung to the belief that I couldn’t be inspired if I didn’t write by the seat of my (too big) pants.

And then TIN GOD came along, and I had 987 ideas and my critique partner Catie Rhodes introduced me to Scrivener. If you haven’t tried it, definitely check the program out. For the organizationally challenged like me, it is a Godsend.

TIN GOD is the first book I tried to plot. I really did have my own version of an outline…which changed about 10 times as I wrote. And that was all right. I was still learning structure and how to use my ideas efficiently. The second Delta Crossroads Book, SKELETON’S KEY, just got delivered to the developmental editor, and while I managed to mostly stick to the loose outline, it was also a story that sort of raged out of me in about three months total.

Which brings me to my current WIP. It’s going to be different than anything I’ve attempted. It’s a thriller and a time slip novel, meaning there will be scenes set in the past, and the subject matter(s) are delicate. The plot is the most intricate I’ve ever attempted.

I had to plan this book out, because by now, my control freak tendencies have crept into my writing and will not be ignored. I’ve read a lot of plotting books, including Scene and Structure, but I still struggled with how to full visualize my story before I started writing. Again, at the prodding (almost always gentle) of my critique partner Catie Rhodes, I studied Patti Larsen’s method. If you don’t know Patti, she is a prolific writer (30 books in something like two years, and they are good!) and great teacher. Her method is easy to understand and was a huge lightbulb moment for me.

But I also had to make it my own. I started out with my notebook and wrote down idea after idea, slowly fleshing out each character. Then came the plot ideas. What if this, and what if that? A lot of them were chucked out. A few were kept. Over and over, narrowing it down. I started this journey at the end of April and today, I have a 43 scene detailed synopsis. When I say detailed synopsis, I mean I know what the arc is of each individual scene, what the high points are, which ones have the key symbolism that plays into the plot, etc. Catie’s read the synopsis, we made some changes, and now I am fine tuning.

The benefit of having this synopsis is that we can see plot issues before we even start writing! Now, that doesn’t mean that more won’t pop up–that’s inevitable. But hopefully, we can catch the worst offenders now.

A year ago, I would have said this would never work for me, that the scenes would be flat and uninspired with so much early planning. Maybe that was true then, but it isn’t now. I’ve also been doing a lot of craft studying, and if you haven’t read Donald’s Maass’s Writing 21st Century Fiction, do it now. There is much to be learned from that book, for writers of any stage. As I’ve developed as a writer, my process has changed, and it changes for each book. I can’t tell you exactly how I got to this point for the WIP, and I probably won’t be able to replicate it for the third Delta Crossroads book. And that’s okay, because writing is ever evolving. Point is, we as authors need to be willing to learn and change. Just like a child, every book we write has different needs.

The point of this post? To tell you that I am SO FREAKING EXCITED to have this synopsis. Going this route has been perfect for me, and it will enable me to write slower, focus more on the nuances and micro-tension of each scene. I’ve gone from feeling as though I were flailing around like a decapitated chicken to being just a bit cocky about my plans for this book.

So there’s my thrilling story. Thrilling to me, anyway. I feel as though I’ve turned a corner with my writing, and I’m excited to see what’s down the road. And if you’re a panster, I’m not saying give that up and start plotting ahead. Just be flexible. Let the book tell you how it needs to be written.

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Sample Sunday: You Can Never Go Back Again

~A quick sample from my mystery suspense, TIN GOD.~

Nick stayed motionless on the bed. Heavy quiet, the kind cultivated by bone-numbing guilt and weariness, loomed over him. He hadn’t been back to Roselea since the funeral. Shameful, he knew. Lana’s family deserved better. He just couldn’t face them, even her brother, whom he’d always liked. Burrowing into work came easy, a trait Lana had dually admired and loathed. She’d told him so the day she died. Same day Nick accused her of having an affair. He’d had no proof, no reason. Just his own shortcomings.

He still remembered the hurt simmering in Lana’s eyes. She’d said nothing. Simply stood up, gathered her briefcase and keys, and walked out. He knew then he’d made the biggest mistake of his life, but he’d been too proud to take the words back. Besides, he had a story to chase down, and begging for forgiveness would have to wait until later.

Later never came.

Nick gazed out over the town Lana had grown up in. Somewhere amid the picturesque history, a killer hid. Rebecca Newton’s body was still being autopsied, but after Nick’s frantic phone call, his brother-in-law had gone to the coroner’s office to see Rebecca first hand.

“Was like looking at my sister all over again,” Cage had said last night. “Even the purple bruise pattern on her neck looked the same. I hauled ass into the john and threw up.”

I killed your wife again last night.

The letter waited in his laptop case, still carefully sealed in the plastic bag. He should’ve known better than to try to fool himself when he first heard of Rebecca Newton’s murder. There were no coincidences.

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Thriller Thursday: Snake Handling Can Be Murder

I’m excited to welcome Jen Blood, author of the Erin Solomon mystery series, to the blog today. She’s talking about something very cool and completely terrifying to me: snake handling. Please make sure to leave her some love!

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In my latest mystery, Southern Cross, reporter Erin Solomon goes to Kentucky with former mentor (and occasionally more) “Diggs” Diggins, to investigate the murder of Diggs’ childhood best friend. In short order, the investigation leads the duo to a fundamentalist preacher by the name of Jesup T. Barnel—a fire-and-brimstone sort who’s preaching the end of days, and leaving a whole lot of chaos in his wake.

As I was researching the character of Barnel, one of the things I looked into was the bizarre practice of snake handling—wherein “true believers” demonstrate their righteousness by passing around live, poisonous snakes. Snake handling is practiced in churches in the South, the Appalachias, and even in some parts of Canada, and is based primarily on a Bible verse from Mark:

“And these signs shall follow them that believe: In my name shall they cast out devils; they shall speak with new tongues. They shall take up serpents; and if they drink any deadly thing, it shall not hurt them; they shall lay hands on the sick, and they shall recover
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Those who handle snakes say they only do so when the Holy Spirit moves them, at which time they say Christ protects them from harm. During these times, members of these churches have been known to stomp on the snakes, wrap themselves in the writhing serpents, and even drink strychnine to further prove their faith. Over the past hundred years, there have (not surprisingly) been a number of deaths attributed to these snake handling ceremonies, but one in particular really caught my attention. I thought I would take a moment to share that one today, during this week’s Thriller Thursday.

Glenn and Darlene Summerford lived in Scottsboro, Alabama, a town of roughly 14,000 people about thirty miles from the Alabama-Georgia border. The town is most famous for the “Scottsboro Boys” trial, when nine black boys were accused of raping two white women in 1931. The case became one of the most important in civil rights history because ultimately it established that no one, regardless of race, could be excluded from the right to a fair, juried trial.

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By 1991, Scottsboro was a deeply religious, primarily Christian and Fundamentalist Christian community. Glenn Summerford was pastor of the Church of Jesus Christ with Signs Following. Snake handling was a big part of his ministry. He and his wife Darlene were a volcanic couple—he was a drinker, she was alleged to have slept around with both members of Glenn’s congregation and even her own step-children. One night in October, Glenn snapped. He came home drunk, beat Darlene, then dragged her to the cage where his snakes were held and forced her hand inside. Not surprisingly, she was bitten. Then, Glenn forced her to drive around with him for awhile, while her hand swelled and gradually blackened. When they returned home, he forced her hand into the snake cage again. She was bitten a second time.

Fate was on Darlene’s side that night, however, because after the second snake bite, Glenn continued drinking and eventually passed out. Darlene was able to get to a phone to call her sister, and was rushed to the hospital. She survived, and Glenn Summerford was sentenced to ninety-nine years in prison for his crimes.

After Glenn Summerford went to prison, investigative reporter Dennis Covington did an in-depth report on snake handling at The Church of Jesus Christ With Signs Following. His award-winning nonfiction account of that world, Salvation on Sand Mountain, provides a fascinating glimpse into the men and women who attend these churches. In fact, Covington became so enamored with that world that he remained a member of the church for nearly two years, during which time he became a regular serpent handler himself.

Southern Cross contains a particularly harrowing incident with snakes Reverend Barnel uses as part of his church services, and it was a great—albeit occasionally disturbing—exercise trying to get inside the mind of a man so fervent in his faith that he believes nothing can harm him.

While these ceremonies seem like the kinds of things you’d more likely find in third-world countries, it’s interesting to note that it’s estimated that up to 15,000 believers still practice snake handling today. Though it is outlawed in many parts of the U.S., there is only a nominal fine involved ($100 – $150), and because religious freedom is invariably part of the mix, few churches or individuals are ever prosecuted—even when a death occurs.

Jen Blood is a freelance journalist, and author of the bestselling Erin Solomon mysteries. She holds an MFA in Creative Writing/Popular Fiction from the University of Southern Maine, and her work has been published in Down East, Bark, Pif, and newspapers and periodicals around the country. You can learn more about Jen and the Erin Solomon series by visiting her website, http://jenblood.com/.

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ALL THE BLUE-EYED ANGELS, Book 1 of the Erin Solomon Pentalogy
SINS OF THE FATHER, Book 2 of the Erin Solomon Pentalogy
SOUTHERN CROSS, Book 3 of the Erin Solomon Pentalogy

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Thriller Thursday: When the Killer Speaks

A couple of weeks ago, I was scrolling through the Direct TV guide and caught a program on Biography about serial killer Bobby Joe Long. It was one of the most disturbing programs I’ve ever watched.

In 1984, Bobby Joe Long kidnapped, raped, and murdered at least 10 women in the Tampa Bay area. He is believed to have raped at least 50 women.

He was already on probation for assault when he started cruising areas known for prostitution as well as various bars where women might be found alone. Long said his victims approached him and he persuaded him to enter the car. In the Biography episode I watched, he very frankly talked about subduing and threatening the women in the car, and then taking them back to his apartment. He bound the women with rope and proceeded to sadistically rape and torture them before finally killing. Some he strangled, some he bludgeoned, while he cut the throats of others. Every body was displayed with its legs splayed several feet apart at odd angles. Bobby Joe Long is known to have killed five prostitutes, two exotic dancers, a factory worker, a student, and a woman of unknown occupation.

As I watched Long, I was reminded of Ted Bundy, the most charming serial killer of all. Bobby was a pleasant, round faced guy with an easy smile and conversational way of speaking–all while he was telling the story of his vicious murder spree. He knew what he did was wrong, and he wasn’t trying to excuse himself. But he also made it clear that during the time of the murders, the women he killed all showed themselves as morally corrupt, and he really didn’t think their lives were worth much at all.

Again, he told all of this as though he were recounting an adventure, and it was that attitude that chilled me to the bone.

One incredibly brave woman brought Bobby Joe to his end. On her way home from work on November 3, 1984, Lisa McVey was snatched off her bike by someone hiding in the bushes. He had a gun, and quickly blindfolded her and forced her into his car.

Lisa begged him not to hurt her and told him she would do whatever he wanted.  He kept her for 26 hours, repeatedly raping her and even making her shower with him. He told her several times he didn’t want to hurt her. 

During her ordeal, Lisa paid attention to her surroundings. In the car, she managed to peer under the blindfold for a look at the car’s interior. At his apartment, she saw the white stucco building and red steps.

Although the man insisted that she keep her eyes shut as he abused her, she managed to get a look at her surroundings. She also dropped a barrette next to the bed, unnoticed, to prove that she had been there. Inside, she managed to drop a barrette next to the bed to prove she’d been there.

After raping her again, Bobby Joe dozed off. Lisa didn’t try to flee, and when Bobby woke up, he said he trusted her. He stopped referring to her as bitch and called her babe. He said he wished he could keep her, and she even told him she’d stay, be his girlfriend.

He eventually took her back to the car and drove away. He stopped, told her to get out and to take care.

Bobby Joe Long was arrested on November 16, 1984, and he wasn’t surprised. He’d known letting Lisa go was the beginning of the end for him, but he never really explained why he chose to do it.

Like Bundy, Bobby had a personality that engaged law enforcement, and he was often seen chatting and joking with him. But beneath that was quick temper, and several involved with the trial saw him morph into a monster on more than one occasion.

Seeing the killer speak was a reminder of the many masks these people can wear and the complexity of their dark personalities. What makes these psychopaths monsters is not only their heinous crimes, but their ability to blend seamlessly back into society after they have washed the blood off their hands.

Bobby Joe Long is currently on death row in Florida.

 

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Sample Sunday: First Chapter is FREE

Hi all! I decided to give you an extra dose of Sample Sunday goodness. Here is the ENTIRE first chapter of TIN GOD. Enjoy!

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“That’s impossible.” Jaymee’s stomach lurched and then spiraled to her toes. The meager window air conditioner in the manager’s trailer did nothing for her constricted lungs. She shifted as the torn plastic of the junky folding chair cut into the back of her thigh. “My boyfriend–ex-boyfriend–paid the rent. I gave him the money last week.”

Her insides continued their cartwheels as Mr. Shaw, smarmy manager of Ravenna Court, pulled open a desk drawer and thumbed through his files. A glob of ash dropped off the cigarette dangling from his thin lips. He grunted and swatted the ash onto the floor. Jaymee squirmed again, reminding herself not to touch anything without first dousing it with disinfecting spray. A pungent aroma of sweat, stale cigarettes, and lemon-scented air freshener hovered over the short, square-faced man who directed all his comments to Jaymee’s chest.

“I didn’t get it.” Mr. Shaw crushed his cigarette into an overflowing ashtray.

Jaymee’s mouth went dry. “I don’t understand.”

“What’s not to understand?” Shaw’s gravelly voice held no empathy. “You’re two weeks late with the lot rent. Now you got five days to come up with the money or get out.”

Troy. What had he done with the cash she’d given him? She’d known this was going to happen as soon as she read the stupid note he’d left her yesterday. Apparently, he’d met the love of his life down at The Lotus, and they planned to live happily-ever-after in fairytale land. Jaymee had grown tired of his laziness and hadn’t been sorry to see him go until now.

“I can postdate a check.” She dug into her cheap bag. Embarrassment burned her cheeks. She’d always managed to pay her rent even if she had to skip a meal or two.

Shaw rubbed the back of his fingers against his scruffy chin, thick eyebrows raised. “Right. Then it’ll bounce. Cash or money order only.”

She didn’t have it–not to spend on rent. Dazed, she sat glued to the crappy plastic chair.

Shaw leaned back and put his hands behind his head. His stony expression changed: beady eyes narrowed; thin lips parted to display yellowed, uneven teeth; eyebrows hiked up his shiny forehead. “You got options.”

Cockroaches might as well have slithered over her body. Jaymee crossed her arms over her chest and pulled up the collar of her tank top, her hand lingering over the skin still exposed. “Excuse me?”

“I accept other forms of payment.”

Her stomach heaved. “I’m not interested.”

“Just sayin’, your neighbor Crystal saves a lot of money by providing certain services.”

Jaymee clamped her mouth shut. A decade of heartache and betrayal had taught her patience and more importantly, how to hide her hatred.

“Again, no thank you.” She snatched the pink slip off his desk. “I’ll have the money for you.”

Shaw’s pursed his lips together until they turned white. His eyes had gone cold again. “Have it your way. You got three days.”

Jaymee exited and shoved the door to Shaw’s trailer shut with her elbow. Midday heat snatched her breath. Red-hot sun bore down on the mobile home park, wilting the already scraggly pepperbush growing along the half-dried out creek bed that served as the park’s eastern border. Three fat tiger spiders nested among the bushes’ white leaves, lying in wait for mosquitoes. She shuddered and skittered to the other side of the drive.

She stomped down the dusty path, her chest aching with fury. She’d have to dip into her minuscule savings account, and that money was meant for something far more precious than rent. She glared at the miserable place she called home as her shoes began to fill with gritty dirt.

Ravenna Court was about as beautiful as a rattlesnake bite. Forty or more dilapidated mobile homes lined the park, all in various states of disrepair and neglect. Instead of cultivating colorful flowers, Ravenna residents battled kudzu and stubborn cogongrass. Children played in the weed-ravaged empty lots, and neighborhood dogs roamed free along with raccoons and other night bandits. Life on the west side of Roselea, Mississippi’s historic cemetery, was a hell of a lot different from the genteel atmosphere enjoyed uptown. Jaymee didn’t have any beautiful antebellum homes to admire on her walk home. All she saw were overgrown yards and decaying headstones from the nearby cemetery.

She lived here for seven long years–since just after her eighteenth birthday. Now that she had to dig into her savings just to get by, she figured she’d be stuck here for the rest of her life.

What other option did she have? She kicked a clod of dirt and watched it roll down the bank towards the creek. Everything she owned, however pathetic it might be, was in that trailer. She had no place to go, and she couldn’t do anything without a place to live.

Unless she called Darren. She’d rather eat dirt. Her brother would help, and then her father would descend to berate her for shaming the family yet again, but not before he chewed her mother out for Jaymee’s very existence. Her mother had enough misery to deal with.

Her sweat-soaked scalp tingled from the heat. A single bead of perspiration trickled down her neck and into the crevice of her bra. She followed the gravel road out of the small trailer park, grateful for the canopy of red maples and dogwoods lining the path. They were the only pretty things in this place. Graying headstones peeked through the thicket of woods. Guilt swept over her. She hadn’t visited in a while.

“Wish you were here.” Her voice sounded meek in the humid air. This was one of those days when Lana’s absence was nearly unbearable. Her oldest friend rested forever in Roselea’s historic cemetery, taken away four years ago by some cruel stranger in downtown Jackson. Lana had been a couple of years older than she, and they’d grown up together–along with Lana’s brother Cage–in Roselea. When things got bad at home, Jaymee fled to the safety of Lana’s. They’d lock themselves up in her pink and green bedroom, and Jaymee would pour out her misery. Lana listened but never judged. Not even when Jaymee made the biggest mistake of her life.

A fly landed on Jaymee’s bare leg, and she swatted it away. She followed the winding road past the cemetery, sadness mounting with every step. The graveyard was part of historic Roselea, with its hulking Civil War monuments and graves dating back to the late 1700s. Overgrown kudzu and jasmine snaked over the stones, giving the cemetery a wild, haunted look. On cooler evenings when her life wasn’t totally falling apart, Jaymee loved wandering through the grounds. The decaying stones, some of them too faded to read, usually gave her a strange sense of peace.

But today the cemetery looked cold and bleak. Its appearance matched the sadness that lived in her heart, leaking into her everyday life until she wanted to lie down and give up.

Yesterday had been her daughter’s birthday. Sarah was seven now, living somewhere with her adoptive parents. Did she have a party? Eat too much cake and ice cream? Did Sarah have any clue her real mother existed–that Jaymee hated herself for trusting the wrong people? Only seventeen, she’d been naïve and in a hopeless situation. Ripe pickings for the manipulative bastard who’d bullied her into giving Sarah up.

Jaymee had been saving her money, biding her time. She almost had enough to retain a lawyer. Digging into her savings to replace the money Troy stole from her would set Jaymee back at least two months.

The hits kept coming, but that was life. At least that’s what Jaymee kept telling herself. “Can’t give up. Lana would never forgive me.”

Tired and hot, Jaymee stayed under the shade of the dogwood blossoms and checked her watch. Fifteen minutes to walk to her gig cleaning Roselea’s antebellum masterpiece before her shift at the diner this evening.

Maybe she could ask Rebecca for the money. Her part-time employer had become a friend of sorts over the past couple of years, and Jaymee suspected the housewife was lonely. Most days, Rebecca followed Jaymee around as she cleaned, rambling about her many charitable causes and plans for her ever-growing flower gardens.

Rebecca might loan her the money. But then she would ask more questions Jaymee didn’t want to answer.

Just a few more months.

Already late, Jaymee beat a fast path down Rosaire Drive, a winding avenue high on the bluffs overlooking the Mississippi River. In the heart of the town’s antebellum district, the street housed several historic homes, but the crown jewel was Evaline Hall. Brick columns guarded the entrance, and the stones were covered with blooming jasmine. The blacktopped drive wound through magnolias and live oaks until turning sharply to the left, where Evaline emerged. She stood two stories tall, her white portico supported by four wide columns. The main body of the house boasted a second story balcony made of strong iron, and two symmetrical wings made the mansion as imposing as she was beautiful.

Part of Evaline was open for tourists, but the house was always closed for cleaning on Tuesdays. Jaymee hurried up the stone steps, eager to get started. Evaline was the only place she could escape the heat and shitty memories of her life. The old house, full of antiques and secrets of its own, felt more like home than Jaymee’s own tiny trailer.

She paused in front of the main entrance. Rebecca’s new marble planter chock full of pink azaleas lay on its side, planting soil spilling out onto the whitewashed porch.

“Damn.” Jaymee pulled the heavy planter back onto its base. A four-inch crack snaked vertically through the white marble. Rebecca was going to be pissed.

A hot breeze drifted through the porch. The azalea blooms shifted in the breeze, but the heavy marble remained rooted to the floor. Jaymee nudged the planter with her foot. It had to be at least twenty-five pounds.

A twinge of unease rippled through her. She shrugged it off. “Must have been one hell of a gust of wind.”

Jaymee bypassed the main door and followed the wraparound porch to the east wing where the Newtons lived. The side door was unlocked, and Jaymee entered the home’s newly remodeled gourmet kitchen. Evaline’s original kitchen sat in the west wing of the home. A favorite of tourists, the old room had once been detached, but the house had eventually been renovated to include it . Rebecca had preserved the old kitchen but had no desire to cook in it.

“Hello?” Jaymee looked at the granite counter. She’d left her sunglasses here last week and Rebecca said they were still sitting on the counter. But she didn’t see them. “Rebecca, I’m here.”

Silence greeted her. Odd. Rebecca was usually bursting to talk. She was probably holed up in her art room painting. Out of habit, Jaymee turned to the stove where apple muffins usually waited, covered with an embroidered warming towel. The stove was empty. A sharp jolt of nerves hit her. The kitchen was immaculate, as though it had just been cleaned. Rebecca hadn’t cooked a thing this morning, or there would have been dirty baking dishes in the sink.

Jaymee moved with heavy feet to the refrigerator. The iced tea pitcher was nearly empty. Rebecca always had fresh iced tea waiting for Jaymee.

“Rebecca?”

Jaymee hurried down the hall, her five-and-dime canvas shoes slapping against the hardwood floors. Rebecca’s art room was empty, the paints and brushes put away, the lights off and blinds closed.

She must not be home. But Rebecca would have found a way to let Jaymee know she’d cancelled. She was too polite to just disappear, and she’d stopped by the diner yesterday afternoon for a slice of chocolate meringue pie and confirmed their plans.

“Where is she?” Jaymee felt compelled to whisper, as if talking too loudly would disturb the house. The heavy silence felt foreign and sinister. A thump sounded on the private set of stairs that led up to the Newton’s master bedroom and guest area.

“Rebecca?” Jaymee heard the tremor in her voice and rolled her eyes. Good grief. The woman was probably late and just getting out of the shower. She didn’t always have to be the consummate southern hostess.

But she always was.

The voice of fear continued to nag Jaymee.

Another thump on the stairs, and she cut through the hall, skirting the antique desk. Royce Newton’s office door was closed; he was probably out of town, again. The stairs were just on the other side. Jaymee stopped short. Nerves threatened to choke her.

A red, gooey blob marred the bottom step. Blood. No, couldn’t be. Jelly. Had to be jelly. But Rebecca would never have left the mess on the expensive wood.

Jaymee’s heart beat double time. The blobs continued up the stairs in a strange pattern. Had Rebecca hurt herself? Jaymee took another unsteady step, but a hiss of anger stopped her. She caught herself on the banister to keep from face planting on the wood steps.

A mournful yowl sent a shiver of terror from her spine to her toes. Silas, Rebecca’s finicky Persian cat, sat halfway up the stairs, eyes narrowed. Brownish-red spots marred his white fur, and his front paws were covered with the crimson goop.

“Poor kitty. What happened? Did you hurt yourself?” She reached for the cat, but he hissed again and turned tail up the steps. Jaymee followed.

Halfway up, a foul smell saturated the air. The scent was so dense it seemed to have its own mass, much like the inescapable Mississippi humidity. Jaymee’s throat convulsed; she covered her nose and breathed through her mouth. The smell intensified with every step, taking on the odor of rotting sewage. Silas’s bloody paw prints continued up the stairs and across the hall to the Newton’s bedroom.

A memory stirred, twisting its way through the recesses of Jaymee’s mind. She knew this smell, knew the way the scent permeated the soul and made its way down into the gut.

Something terrible is in that room.

The door stood open just enough for the cat to squeeze through. Morning sun streamed through the massive picture window, bathing the room in a prism of light. More bloodstains glistened on the oak floor.

An icy sensation rippled down Jaymee’s spine. She tried to swallow, but her parched throat refused to work. If Silas had lost that much blood, he wouldn’t be running around the house. She fumbled toward the door, heart trying to pound its way out of her chest. The putrid odor had grown so strong it coated her mouth. Bile built in her throat.

The smell of death.

Her father and brother hunted, and as a small child, she’d made the foolish mistake of running to meet them when they’d returned from a weekend trip. In the back of her father’s black pickup truck lay a massive buck, gutted, tongue protruding out of its mouth. Her brother tried to stop her from seeing, but it was too late. The stench hit Jaymee full force, and she threw up on the side of the truck. Her father had spanked her.

Death lay inside that room. Every muscle, every nerve, begged Jaymee to turn and run, but anxiety propelled her forward. With a pale, shaking hand, she slowly pushed the heavy bedroom door open. The silence was so loud Jaymee feared her head might burst.

Nothing could have prepared her for what she saw sprawled out across the king-sized bed, wrists and ankles anchored to the bedposts.

Rebecca.

Tears and sweat stung Jaymee’s eyes even as ice-cold terror took up residence in her veins. Vomit churned in her stomach. She couldn’t look away.

Rebecca’s flaxen-colored hair spilled across the pillow. Her pale skin bore violent red slashes. Dried blood stained the white, silk sheets. Purple bruises covered Rebecca’s throat and chest. Her hands were clenched into permanent fists of agony, and her eyes were wide open, staring at the ceiling, her mouth slack.

Jaymee clamped her hand over her mouth. Her employer’s resemblance to Lana had never been more brutally obvious. The long legs, blond hair, high cheekbones, and sunny smile were all frozen in grotesque shock, just as Lana’s had been in the pictures Jaymee forced Cage to show her.

Dead. Both of them.

Silas sat on the edge of the bed staring at Jaymee. Rebecca’s blood. That’s what had stained his beautiful, white fur. He’d been mourning his master, no doubt trying to get her to pay attention, to wake up.

Jaymee fell to her knees and heaved, even as she crawled away from the nightmare in the bedroom.

Get out, get out, get out.

She crawled down the hallway, gagging and spitting. The Newtons kept a home phone in the kitchen. Tears blurred her sight as she stumbled down the stairs, clinging to the banister for support. Her weak knees finally collapsed, and she tumbled down the last three steps, banging her head along the way. Stars burst in front of her, but Jaymee rolled to her hands and knees. She had to call the police.

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Sample Sunday: A Mother’s Fight Against Illegal Adoption

Black Market Adoption, Two Dead Women, and a Demented Killer. How far would you go to bring justice?

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Nick longed to touch her face, caress her cheek in the way lovers so often did. He fisted his hand against the console. “All we can do is wait.”

“Please give me the phone.”

“She’s not going to answer.”

“I know.” Jaymee held out her hand. “Do you trust me?”

The question took him off guard. Did he? All this time he’d been working to earn her trust, but he’d never stopped to think if he could count on her to do the right thing. She was young, emotionally invested. Broken. Frankly, he didn’t know how she’d kept her sanity all this time. He’d have done more than go off on Paul Ballard at church. He’d have stalked the man to a private spot and tortured him until he talked. Ended up in jail. Yet Jaymee persevered, waiting for the right moment.

He handed her the phone.

She hit redial and then took a deep breath before speaking. “Elaine, this is Jaymee Ballard again. I know you’re scared. I’m scared, too. For myself, for you, your family. But I’m also scared for all the other women whose lives are going to be destroyed by this man’s scheme. How many innocent babies has he stolen since yours? How many kids are out there who will never have a chance to find their biological parents because of his lies? What if your son gets sick and only you can help? There’s no way to find you, is there? He’ll have to suffer. Doesn’t he deserve to have the choice to find you one day? Doesn’t my Sarah?

“Don’t the countless other babies who’ve been taken? Yes, Lana was murdered for this secret. So was another friend of mine, just last week. Maybe we’re in danger, too. But I’ll be damned if I’m going to back off when I know those kids need me.” She let out a long, shuddering breath. “I know you’ll do the right thing, Elaine. For your little boy. We’ll be waiting to hear from you.”

She hit “end” and handed the phone back to Nick. This time, he couldn’t resist. He reached out, cupped her face. Ran his thumb beneath her bottom lip. She flexed, moving forward an inch. Her eyes flamed.

God, he wanted to kiss her.

“That took a lot of strength.” He dropped his hand. She caught it in her own.

“Let’s hope it works.”

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